LACİVERT

Ben lacivertim...O kadar lacivert ki...4 yaşında babaya deliren Ankaralı bir çocuk, 11 yaşında İstanbul'a getirilen daha küçük bir genç kızken ben, 28 yaşında bir borsacıyken, 39'da tek bir anne iken...Hala lacivertim. Hep aynıyım ben. O kadar aynıyım ki ben, hala o küçük kızı barındırıyorum içimde...Yalnız, rockla beslenen ve aslında sevgiye çıldıran, dostluğu dolu dolu yaşatan, kimseyi bırakmayan, bazen terkedilen, bazen su gibi, vazgeçilemeyen...İşte o benim... Hala lacivertim...Ölene dek.

When u love someone... Someone, something, a being or nothing... The one who doesn't exist, a dream may be...You sacrifice and risk everything without taking care of the results. Or u don't and u continue living and then what? The realities come along. You become sad and you ask why? If I could ever do this or that? Then, what? Only loving or hating...Is it enough? Not actually. Look at your HEART! The only thing that is real is your heart. You are alive as long as your heart beats. The only thing that is real is the thing which your heart tells you. The happiness, sadness, loving, feeling, frightening, sex or whatever... Later, the morning comes, the sun rises again. The only thing u lived is the the only thing you keep inside while risking. It is the thing that was lived when the sun was away.It's the night. The DAWN! The things happened at night are the thing without the sun. The morning comes and the things happened in the morning are the comments of the things of the previous night. Or no-comment. Dont u ever make comments. I don't at all! I only think the things we lived are our profits. Moments of happiness... So rare. So precious. These are the things you can't live with the person u are together in bed with everyday, but it is something that u live in that one single night! It is the thing that u take inside or out! Don't u ever stop! Because every moment passes by is agains us actually! Sacrifice. Give to the one who gives tou. Give to the one who takes from u. Take from the one who takes, take from the one who gives to u. Because that is how life is lived! But don't u ever break a heart! Don't make anyone unhappy. It comes back to us. Don't u ever not love! Just stay with love. :)

Actually

We always think about the next steps. Why? Actually everything is so easy. Times pass, days go by, whether this or that way. What about the things left at the end of the day? There...They form the next ones. Or, they don't and the days go by as their own regular ways. Even if we try so hard, go to sleep, actually only the rest stay in our lives. If the music is good, then we listen for years. The photos of those moments remain in our albums for years. Our cats grow, time passes, time lessens.We wake up from dreams, wash our face in the morning and continue the day life. Only hopes, the destroyed dreams, winnings or the excitements remain. Actually a drama is being played. But the only real thing is US! The only real thing is the remaining from US... Our life, the things we live... Or the things we can't live. Hopes, choices. Prices we pay... Vitamins we take, or the booze that makes us high... All the things that belong us.
And the rest?? Again US.
Me, you, he or she... And the leavers??
Only me, you, he or she...